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there was a moment when i remembered what it was like to be on modern again.. all i did was (let me) think about it and a smile came to my face while i was staring off into space towards my dual monitors in my cubicle.. excitement and hope for the future, for what may be, what could be, what is. what happened the other night was magical, comparable to HHI 2007, except with the new faces and picture requests came big names and business cards. celebrity hunting is FUN! getting punched in the dome by someone wearing a super bowl championship ring is not. (didn't happen, but could've. not to me.. just in general..) ABSOLUT LOS ANGELES. i took a hungry escalator out for a midnight snack.. not cool. sweaty bangs--->legendary.
julia gulia
it's one month in one day.  still have a laundry list of things to do.. (down!) but it's always the little things that mean the most. (lehhh-git!) space. this is my favorite! you're my favorite. final-ly, it's hap-pened to meee.. shut upppp..!
nihon
i'm counting down until we land on september 5.. 
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| the immediate feeling is shock. followed by disbelief. confusion. anger. sadness. in these moments, you experience the lowest of the lows, the frays at the end of the rope. hanging on for dear life with your fingernails just sitting, waiting, wishing, and hoping that somehow things will just get back to normal when you wake up from this nightmare. time passes and you struggle every day. making ends meet, doing what you can just to get by. when you begin to relax from the numbness of telling your story 10 zillion times to different people, it becomes a little easier to breathe. you try to keep all the negative vibes away and just smile with a laugh when you think about what just happened. you walk down your path of life the way it has been laid down before your feet. and then you realize that of all the people in the world, it happened to you.. and you wonder how you were able to get through it all with barely a scratch. and so you've learned that your life will never be the same.
change is normal. change is growth. life is constant change.
you're lucky, you're so lucky. you're living happily ever after and i'm so proud of you.  |
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| eight to five.
the first paycheck you get from a salaried job is nice.. and when i say nice i mean REALLLYY NICE.
because of you..
i'm still alive. living breathing laughing dancing. getting up in the morning and getting down at night. thank you. family now means more than that.
sweet escape.
it's a lot harder than i remember.. and i think it just gets more complicated as the days pass. probably because i live with my parents [again].
mountains of crap.
=o)
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| it's always nice.. whether or not you want it, everybody's bound to end up with a handful of it. sometimes it can brighten your day while other times it can weigh you down. it can be a good thing you just can't live without, and other times it's something extra you just don't need.
i finally saw the movie cars today with my mom and erik. a quote i liked that mater said was "you don't need to know where you're going, you just need to know where you've been." sooooooo true.
right now i'm in this constant phase of change that's come right after the longest phase of monotony i've ever had in my life. it's been good though. really good, actually. i'm working now.. and i'm still dancing with kaba and csla. i i drive more than i sleep, but i've been alright so far. there's ice on my car when i'm trying to leave for work.. and i also have some new friends at home who i adore and hang out with whenever possible.. life's been interesting since the new year.. 
then again, there are those things that never change and stay the same no matter what else happens in my life. and those are the things i am most thankful for............................. goodnight.
p.s. go to vibe 12!! get your $18[uci]/$20[non-uci] presale tickets from a uci student asap.
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| i'm about to take my mom to work.. and it's 32 F outside. WHYYYY??? i'm in walnut..
not............ somewhere cold.... like alaska..
wtf.
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